YAY.

For my Mag/Design class for school i have to write about 'Teen Problems' and I think well this is going to be a long subject. From my perspective that's all i see happening around me right now is maturity. We have no choice but to deal with it and go with it, continue on with it and accept it. There are many people that will be long gone next year, there will be people that literally have no choice but to just leave, and leave for a very long time. I say that because I know multiple people that will get kicked out of there homes just because there age and parents not being able to handle things anymore. We have to mature up because some of us are way to young to be in this grade, not even 18 and not having the "rights". People go out there and say stuff like,"It's your last year! enjoy this and have fun!" Not many people can do that knowing that they will have to get a job, lose contact with old friends, and go to MORE SCHOOL. Isn't that great? after high school its still not over folks! But whatever, its our economy and government that does this to us. Take a look at the national student debt guys, and listen to stories that have been told about this. Its kinda sad. My mom is even in 9 thousand dollars in debt. Do i know how i'm going to pay for college or get to San Francisco where i plan to move and study music after college? No.

Money Money Money.

I've been looking forward to a lot of things. I haven't been practicing as much as i should but i have started giving lessons to a person who showed up at one of my marimba band performances then later asked me if i'd like to teach her son. We exchanged numbers, and soon enough we got in contact with each other and i'm now getting paid 15$ an hour for lessons for guitar. And i do love doing that because it gives me motivation to do more for music, more for pursuing my dream of becoming a sound engineer/producer.

Plans

Many people don't know but i used to be really into soccer and i played for 10 years. It was my dream to become a professional, soccer was my life. Things changed when i moved and i was put into a lower soccer team for 3 years because i didn't know of any others around i was the best of the team and i really didn't learn to much. High school came and i got health problems and got tired easily it sucked, i was depressed and i stopped. I regret ever stopping something that was so important to me. And that's where music comes in. There are times where i did almost stop playing for awhile it was horrible. It scares me to know i am going to become a sound engineer because i didn't have much confidence as i had in soccer. Being a musician is a tough field especially if you are a woman.

Figure

My question is if its just me that would ever give up something or something of my own for someone to be happy. Someone very important to you or even someone you just think is worthy of that. How do you know if there truly worthy if you don't know them? Well take a look at the facts, maybe they really need it, you  enjoy there energy around, or you just really think they are. A person that is truly important to you will always feel your pain. When they feel a relief you feel a relief when you feel stressed they feel stressed when your mad there mad and let me ask you, if your feeling happy how do they feel? its a comforting thing sometimes when you know its not just you feeling the same way as someone else and knowing they understand. That's how best friends are. And a best friend can be anyone.

MY MODERNIST

Ernest Hemingway because he is the only journalist i looked up that i actually took extra time on to find out more and more, and i think because i also understand and like his work a bit more then the others i have looked up.

Class Discussion: Police Bruitality

In class today we discussed what we found as information toward police brutality. The class period was so short i didn't get to discuss my own information that i found(which i studies all night for 3 hours and 2 hours this morning so i was prepared to say what i had found. So, what i didn't want was to leave things unsaid. I mean, i did find information since i did study about 5 hours straight about this stuff.
What i wanted to figure out was if there is actually anything that they were tought in the academy or anything in the law that shows they cant just shoot a person for a small crime or something that says they're suppose to follow this or they were taught this. My mother joined the academy in San Jose to join the police force back when i was a lot younger, she was hired in Guadalupe when we moved to Santa Maria as a reserve officer. She still got paid for it but didn't want to let go working at Vandenberg tracking station. But anyway i came to her and told her my situation of trying to look for research, she gave me a book(the name was PC 832 concepts iv, peace officer required training) and said yes there is regulations and things the police must follow. I kept reading and reading and i found this,
Decision to use deadly force: many officers complete their entire careers without (fortunately) ever facing the need to use deadly force. However, one must be realistic and realize that such a need may  arise at any time. Therefore, if for any reason you feel that you cannot apply deadly force when necessary in the course of your sworn duty, you should not enter a branch of armed law enforcement.

Moral and psychological aspects: in the consideration of the moral aspects of the force necessary to effect and arrest, one should consider the following quote," The goof of the people is the chief law"
Many officers do not resort  to deadly force unless the suspected felon is dangerous and/or has committed a violent crime( grand theft, armed robbery). To keep things in perspective, one might properly equate the personal consequences of taking a human life against the punishment the suspect might otherwise receive when and if convicted.

Reasonable person rule: if, viewed from the standpoint of the ordinary reasonable and prudent person, such extreme fore was not reasonably  necessary and the arrest could have been accomplished  without it, the homicide is not justifiable.

Duty to public: peace officers owe a duty to the public not to violate anyone's civil rights by the use of excessive or imprudent force.

Basic Professional concepts:

Public approbation of police:the ability of the police to perform there duties is dependent upon the approval of police existence, action, behavior, and the ability of the police to secure and maintain public respect

Minimum use of force: The police should use physical force to the extent necessary to secure observance of the law or to restore order only when  the excercise of persuasion, advice, and warning is found  to be insufficient to achieve police objectives; and police should use only the reasonable amount of force which is necessary on any particular  occasion for achieving a police objective.

It is also said they can only use deadly force when they do and 'eye search' see if he has a weapon or see if a person by them is in danger. It's just all i see in this book are reasonable force. which is pointed to words and opinions that anyone can really say. was it reasonable? That is just them trying to get your perspective.

Favorite Fallacies

1. Argumentum ad ignorantiam
2. Argumentum ad misericordiam
3. Naturalistic fallacy.
4. Red herring.
5. Argumentum ad numerum

All these arguments are my favorites because i understand them very well or i do think they work at times.

The Argument Assignment.

Let me tell you a story when a argument gone wrong. I was doing my work in the computer lab, read that i had to have an argument with someone and i said why not have a little one with my bestfriend next to me. She read that i had to do this and she said ok and i said i was gonna ask her a question and go from there. Then she started reading a post about our journal topic yesturday. She laughed at it and said hey! You got some misspelling there. I immediately exited out because i got so frustrated. The last time i was with her posting to my blog she started complaing that everything on there was just cheesy and stupid. After that i just really didnt want to write anything around her because thats all she says, but anyway back to the point. I exited out very quickly and right away she said,"well why the hell did you do that!" I told her i was sick of her talking about my writing because it's disrespectful to me! I told her yes it was my assignment and all just do it at home. RIGHT THEN AND THERE IT WAS ON! Sat there the whole entire period arguing about why that was just so bad to do. I told her everytime she sees deep quotes or someones writing she thinks its just cheesy and even thinks that about songs. I MEAN WHAT! DOES SHE WANT TO LISTEN TO ALL REGGAE OR SOMETHING! Me and my bestfriend are together alot(were talking everyday for the past 8months except for a week and a couple of days inbetween but still!) so yes, we do get sick of each other at some points. I told her, what. What do you really want. She said she wants me to stop getting so frustrated with things and open up more. Now me, i have anxiety and stress problems due to past experiences. i told her that stuff is just a hard thing to change, she said not if your willing to try. I told her i have been trying, i have been more happier lately and now i just feel like i havent gotten anywhere i guess. We took a 5min break because she had to get something done. During that time i tried think what i really want her to stop doing. After the 5min she replied back and was like,"what, are you still not going to do your work?" And i told her no because i wasnt done with the conversation. She told me she was sick of me always trying to find a good time to tell her something thats important and just spit it out whenever i think about it. That usually happens right when she has to leave when shes in her car. I said well we cant do it much at your house since your parents and stiff are around and i dont think ive been doing that to much lately. And that mostely happens because i start to realize nope! Cant tell her after this! Im sad that shes leaving, oh here comes all the bad stuff! Then i started telling her that i realized today that i just dont like people telling me that im burnt half the time because that just means that there thinking im stupid. I told her look. I just have a damn hard time speaking, i always have ever since i was little(during the time i said this i was about to break down and cry because i started having anxiety). I have a hard time speaking and trying to make sense and trying not to mumble or speak jibber jabber. Sometimes ya i do feel stupid because i cant do that or sometimes i act like i just dont care when really im just trying to have fun. And have the people around me have fun with my energetic(at times) self. The bell rang right after that and the conversation stopped. And so i said what a fantastic argument!!! I got in a fight with my bestfriend( we kinda just put that to the side and just said whatever about it and just went with some friends and had fun together then hung out all day till like 10 we had some fun like we always do and laughed our ass off a shit ton of times, just filling you in). But hey we did have an argument for a whole hour and got some things out but still think that were not done with the subject. So i say thank you preston! I had my argument!(:

What Jiro Means To Me.

I finished watching to the movie Jiro Dream Of Sushi. It was about a man named Jiro who is 80 years old and was named one of the oldest person to own a 3 star  restaurant  in Japan. He was kicked out of his household at age 9, didn't know what to do. But Jiro did know he liked sushi, and he had a passion for making sushi. What Jiro did was open a sushi restaurant in a subway station. He explained in the movie that sometimes we know what were good at and its our choice to continue on with that something were good at or find something else to do. That's where we find Jiro inspirational. Jiro had nothing, sometimes at some point in your life you think you have nobody on your side and in some cases that's true. It's sad but true, some of us didn't have parents or friends by our side we just had ourselves to pull it together. Think of having to get kicked out of your house at age 9, not knowing much and not knowing where to go. All of a sudden your having to do things and figure out what's better for yourself. That's where i'm at, i do know what i wanna do but not knowing if i really will succeed. Its a scary thought and a thought i just ignore. Jiro helped me realize this feeling. Im willing to fail at what i want to do, because i know after all the pain and anxiety all go threw all still have the courage to try it again. Jiro hasn't made perfection and none of us have, really.

The Catcher In The Rye chapter 4

Chapter 4 is about Stradlater and Holden talking in the 'can' as they call it. I can see Holden getting a bit jealous that Stradlater is going out with this girl and he even asks him to say a few words to her. Her name was Jean Gallagher.

The Catcher In The Rye chapter 3

Chapter 3 probably has been one of my favorite chapters only because i totally agree with his thought that he likes it when books are funny once in awhile and then he starts talking about a guy farting in the middle of another guys speech. Now that cracked me up. He talked about where he lived on the Ossenburger memorial wing and how it was named after a guy who went there that was a hot shot. Then we met a new character named Ackley but his real name was Robert Ackley.
 Then Holden's roommate Stradlater walked in and Ackley hated him. Stradlater got back from the football game and Stradlater said he was going on a date with a girl Holden new.

Big Questions.

My topic is music, music is something i can make and be apart of and say,"I'd never be happier doing anything else." And its true. When i cant talk, nothing makes sense i sit down play something or listen to music. Ive always loved listening to music and hearing my mom and dad play music incredibly loud when i was a kid. But when i first herd a guitar for the first time, it was from my uncle, he played under the bridge by the Red Hot Chili Peppers. I new he played but never actually sat down and herd him. He played it and i felt it, i felt the vibration of the strings and them being strummed right in front of me. I felt love and i felt it in my heart, theres no exact way to explain what i really feel when i play an instrument or i hear the strings being played with that sweet sound of an incredible invention. That may have been a long explanation but that was just reason.
This topic will enrich my life by letting me be a social bug and talk to many people, it'll provide value for learners by explains there is so much more to an instrument and how hard it gets to make the sound that you hear. To learning how instruments got to be more brilliant and smarter to get to play. And learning the different ways and sounds to develop.
My topic requires to know the importance of knowing styles, history, other musicians and many more. But just incase i should take a class of business in college, maybe just incase i ever get across of owning my shop. And to include that learning an instrument requires alot of practicing and expierience, thats what all musicians must do.
My plan to learning more about music is an incredible amount of practice and time for what i need for this. And of course learning sheet music and lots of reading about instruments.
Resources i could reach without obsticles are music mentors, teachers, famous people who have a huge backround and story on how they got to be what they are. And always playing the different guitars and amplefiers and other instruments.

Questions.

So as for this assignment i had to ask 3 people about whet they wanted to do when they're older right after writing down what i wanted to do. I asked my best friend Anna, what she wanted to do? She explained she wanted to be a tattoo artist because its the only thing she could think of that she would be happy with. Being able to draw something(something that she loves doing and is amazing at doing that, ya i'm so jealous... You would be to) and having it permanently there on someones body. Hearing there stories on why they're getting this. Its the only thing she can think of that she would completely love to do. She'd be able to get to know really cool people and get paid for doing it.But then i told her what i wanted to do which was either to be a clinical psychologist and work with music on the side. She gave me a look and wanted to really know why i want to be a clinical psychologist, and i told her well its really just what i'm interested in even if all be in school for 10 years to get a PhD i would really want to accomplish it. She did disagree and asked me if i'd really be happy doing that she asked,"picture yourself working 10 years to get this thing done and actually getting your PhD while all of your friends going out doing stuff and your home studying. Now picture yourself working with guitars and instruments maybe even owning your own shop one day and now tell me if you'll be happy with that or clinical psychology." It took a lot for me to think about it, all she was trying to do was really explain to me that she knows me and she knows i wouldn't be happy with doing that. I'm not passionate about clinical psychology(i honestly barely know how to spell psychology) but i'm passionate about music. She pointed to my guitars, bongos, piano, ukulele, harmonicas, my drum set, and all the books i have for them. If i really wanted to be a clinical psychologist i would get started on it, but i'm already started on  music. Anna told me to imagine me not going to school for psychology with out the fact of my family looking at me wrong because i didn't continue going to school. My uncle Tom always said to me after i played guitar to him(we do that every time we see each other) he always said i see this in you i see the way you play and i see you doing great things. When i tried writing about what i wanted to do when i'm older i stopped, i stopped because i just couldn't stop explaining it, i wasn't interested. i rewrote my paper and got it done in 10 minutes. And i sat there, i sat there thinking what would i do without this person. She reminded me i cant live life like the way i was living. Believe in yourself and have fun. Do what makes you happy. This explains why i decided to only do my topic off of music. I will still want to learn of psychology, i am interested. But my passion is music.

The Catcher on the Rye Chapter 2

Well chapter 2 just includes a conversation between Holden Caulfield and Mr. Spencer, a teacher he used to have, and how he visits him. The teacher complains of how he was when he was a student and how Holden had him as a teacher. During the conversation Holden didnt even explain one good thing about him, is it really that hard to admit one good thing you liked about him?

The Catcher in the Rye Chapter 1

Chapter 1 of this book is literally like no other book ive ever read, but it is like someone ive met. You know those complainers that just go on and on about 1 subject. But its not like that's all they know, those people are actually incredibly smart, about a lot of things. And as we find out that he gets kicked out of schools and doesn't try in any classes people automatically think,"stupid". Listen to that cheesy quote 'there's more that meets the eye'. Because its incredibly true, that's just like judging someone. But enough of this chapter lets speak about the next chapter. In the next post. About the next chapter...